A Rich Inner Life is Now Required

A Rich Inner Life is Now Required

Because you are reading this from me today, I am certain you have wondered too.

Over the years I often wondered how humans live here without some inner point of reference that brings them peace and comfort while traversing this mortal coil. Then I began to understand what humans as a species were actually doing here on the planet. As embodied souls, humans in the third dimensional plane of existence are here to explore suffering.

Then, if they do the inner work you are doing, they remember how to go beyond suffering while in form. Forgetting the inner life where peace and comfort (and oh, so much more) await is precisely the point of this lifetime game. This complete disconnect happens at birth for most souls, but not all, who come here.

What I came to understand is that humans, as they awaken to their true expansive selves, begin to slip the trap of suffering that is predominately available here on earth today.

Once they begin to slip the program traps- self hatred, self-judgement, self-limiting beliefs and ideas, they literally begin to bloom anew into a remembrance of who they are in the divine cosmology. As they actively and with intention divest themselves of any interest in judging others, participating in ‘only looking out for myself and mine’ attitudes and actions, the greater worlds and realities open up to them.

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When this interior opening and awakening to self occurs, often humans are shocked at the brilliance and beauty of the quantum design that underlies their very existence. I’ve seen others, myself included weep with awe and recognition within this phase of homecoming and recollection.

The fact is humans do not function very well on whole right now. Of course, this a a judgmental statement. In truth they are functioning within perfect harmony with the energetics on the planet. It’s just painful. There is nothing inherently wrong with the path of pain as it will, as all paths do, lead to inner truth and wisdom.

Not everyone here right now is going to awaken to their inner landscape and how it manifests the outer reality they experience while in human form. This is also true. It is not necessary to do so. Many lifetimes make for plenty of evolutionary or ascending practice.

I say all of this to you today as a highly aware and experienced soul who knows that you yearn for homecoming of which I speak. I know that you yearn to be with those of your kind, those who mirror your beauty and love for All That Is. I know your life has been exquisitely painful at times. So has mine.

I also know that if you are reading this item from me, you are on the precipice of enormous revelation and then integration that is happening in perfect timing for who you came to be. Let yourself flow with the natural unfolding that is happening in your life. Yes, be discerning, but learn to listen to your own inner voice.

Make friends with, classify as you need to with your human mind, all the aspects of self that are you. Let these higher, more attuned and aware aspects gently guide you on your own path of human exploration during this powerful lifetime. It is, after all, what you came for.

Let no one define for you who you are and of what you are truly capable. You came here at an incredibly powerful time in human history. As such, you came uniquely informed and front-loaded with extraordinary awareness and skills you are only now beginning to unpack.

Go ever inward and trust what you feel, see and here. Seek your community of others as we are all over this planet. We are welcoming you and know you well. We have indeed all done this before. We have all been embodied at highly potent and changing times and have served the process mightily. As both you and I are doing at this very moment.

Always with my love, Amber

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Yes, False Light Is Light Too

Yes, False Light Is Light Too

Ah yes, false light. I know that title got your attention. It was meant to do so. Your pulse might even be quickening just from reading those two words. They certainly have their own magnetism at a resonant threshold we find uncomfortable to experience. I get this completely.

I’ve had this blog topic floating around in my awareness for a while. False light themes have come up in conversation with colleagues and in my esoteric readings across the last couple of years too. As such, I thought I’d roll out a post on the subject just to get my understanding expressed. Perhaps it will be meaningful in some way for you.

In my experience, when the subject of false light comes up, it usually occurs with those who are on the active hunt for what is true and what is false in our consciousness and spirituality based living. These individuals are seeking truth while more often than not, policing others and their truth seeking or other personal expressions.

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Already I see the humanity in that dynamic. Real versus fake. Trustworthy versus untrustworthy. Duality all of it. Very third dimensional and thus an understandable human consideration. After all, living has been very painful for many lifetimes. We are all professional skeptics by now.

What I want to make clear is that all energy is light energy. There is only light vibrating at infinitely varying speeds across octaves within ever mutating molecular structures. Yes, some aspects lead into extremely tangled and palpably dark intensity, which is a perfectly human exploration. It’s part of what we do here. Others construct lofty sensations and harmonious worlds. Think hearts, butterflies, unicorns and fifth dimensional living.

This concern over false light is what we do here on earth as we grapple with involution and evolution of our personal consciousness. The planet’s intelligence does the very same. As humans we do this type of living experience sometimes knowingly and more often than not, we do so unwittingly (unconsciously). This aspect of shadow type living and exploring is often referred to as false light, false matrix, and synthetic matrix. Yes, this is as real as any reality narrative you elect to construct.

You will hear false light referenced when talking with others about any number of esoteric consciousness constructs or narratives. As in “hey, sorry to tell you this, but that is false light.” This typically occurs when experienced individuals take a fixed view, for their own soul’s growth, of what is real and positive, what is false and negative and then try to apply it to other individuals’ perspectives. Or worse, what is safe and appropriate for others to explore and what is not. While this response is very human, it is also highly judgmental.

It is perfectly understandable that humans will grapple with their growing awareness as we all awaken to new experiences and insights. We have been conditioned to become frightened and self-limiting as well as shaming of others who seek to go beyond widely accepted norms. This limiting behavior occurs for humans within our consciousness and spirituality community with the very same intensity it does elsewhere in life.

Our human ego-centric programs operate like search lights, scanning for dangerous potentials that threaten their status quo. Our actions, once a threat has been identified, are often to quash, redirect and revert to group think in order to maintain acceptable limits of knowledge, experience and awareness.

On another note, there are humans in our collective for whom I perceive a more subtle aspect where false light is of interest. These, in my experience, are those souls who carry guardian of the planet, galaxy, or cosmos gatekeeper energy.  I can usually sense the difference in these humans. They turn a discerning eye on humans who are often heroically willing to overcome significant human judgement to express their expansive awareness via channeling and other energetic methodologies.

These gate-keeping individuals, arrived for these current energetic times, have in their blueprint, the level of discernment to actively encourage individuals to eschew engaging teachers as gurus and to seek insight for themselves, from their own higher selves. They often teach fundamentals of sovereign living so extremely important to these zero point times.

I hope my thoughts and insights on the subject of false light have given you food for thought or pause. You have or will soon bump into this issue. You will be challenged to understand what is meant as well as what this subject means for you and your own growth. Keep in mind always that only YOU know what is true for you and what is the best path for your own awareness and awakening. No one else can define that for you. Yes, they will try. But resist. Cultivate sovereignty above all else.

Happy exploring. Always with my love, Amber

 

 

Hate & the Highly Aware Soul

Hate & the Highly Aware Soul

Our kind often has trouble with hate. As healers, wayshowers, lightworkers, gridworkers and other highly sensitive awakened people we often avoid acknowledging the low vibratory and dense personal experience of hate. What follows is my own experience with it and how it transformed my life.

In writing this post I’m hopeful that you are acknowledging and then healing this very common planetary emotional construct in the third dimension. As with all energy manifestations, hate is only light defined as shadow content, but light nonetheless.

I now understand that in avoiding the subject of hate, we make ourselves vulnerable to exploring a severe limit to our own power to come into self love. And it is exactly self love that triggers engagement with Unity and Christ Consciousness in these times of planetary fifth and beyond ascension.

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Twenty years ago Isabelle told me that I could not know love if I did not know hate. She was one of my consciousness teachers for about twenty five years. As a highly aware, compassionate and perceiving soul I resisted her proposal and balked at any idea that I was capable of hate.

She pointed to extremely painful experiences with humans in my childhood and asked “didn’t you hate the people involved?” No, I did not I told her. I understood them. As an awakened child I knew why they acted the way they did. I was one of those souls who was able to thrive in childhood even in the face of family turmoil.

Then it happened. As I turned forty I lost my best friend. We had known each other since age eighteen. I lost her not to death but to our own subconscious choices to move away from each other and explore other parts of living.

That is a very nice way to describe what occurred. The change was sudden. For me it was quietly violent. It affected me in ways that took years to understand. Then one day it hit me. I hated her. Big time.

I had been trying NOT to hate her for years. We made sad halfhearted attempts to stay connected in a new way, from a distance. Isabelle asked me when the events occurred if my love for my friend “broke”. I was hopeful it had not, so said “no” but I distinctly recall I was not telling the truth.

When the day came that I realized I hated her I simply stopped connecting. It was painful to hate her but it became more painful to pretend that I didn’t. Once I realized that I had discovered hate, I called Isabelle and told the truth as I now knew it. That call came about five years after the events had unfolded, now twelve years ago.

Through that experience, now mostly healed, I was propelled to new heights for setting healthier limits and boundaries on my relationships, especially those from childhood. While I did not experience hate from childhood experiences the way Isabelle suggested, I most assuredly now responded to those events in a number of new ways.

One way was to narrow others’ access to my life and energy. I am now extremely thoughtful about who is in my life and why. I manage my energetic field with much more awareness now. I protect my energy body on a daily basis depending on the day’s events and various settings.

Within two years of the difficult loss of my friendship I  married a man who, in addition to all of his traits, has incredibly tight boundaries. Sometimes overly so. By living with him and witnessing him, he has taught me a lot about what it means to properly care for myself relative to other humans. He is the first generation child of a Holocaust survivor. He knows of what humans are capable.

While he can be compassionate and forgiving he has elected to stay fairly shuttered to avoid what he would consider intrusion from others. At times he serves to protect my interests even when I do not perceive particular risk. While I am still prone to be quite inclusive and engaged with others, this experience has been life changing. For the better.

As a highly aware and empathic ‘Service to Others’ soul I am  naturally motivated and devoted by blueprint design to love and accept humans as they are. My compassion and forgiveness is unlimited. If you are reading this I suspect this is the truth for you too.

It is notoriously difficult for our kind to figure out how to balance our human need to create a sovereign and healthy life when we are designed within a Service to Others construct. My experience of hate, while one of the most painful adult lessons I’ve experienced this lifetime, has been an important teacher. Isabelle was right. I could not fully understand the power of love, particularly self love until I explored it’s twin, hate inclusive of self hate too.

We are all souls this incarnation who arrived from Love and fell asleep to it.The rest of the Cosmos operates on the frequency of Love (Unity as One with Source). We agreed to explore pain and suffering (Separation) along with the miracle and beauty of living on this gorgeous jewel, Mother Earth.

We are now remembering Love. The time finally arrived. We do so by acknowledging what we found here in our lives. Hate is one of the experiences we found. Look for it in yourself. Bring it to the light. Doing so will transfigure you and your relationships, which then transfigures us All. It’s what you came here to do.

Always with my love, Amber